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[19 Oct 2006|09:04pm] |
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okay.
so the great guy and all..
found a god damn girlfriend.
and he promised he'd take ME to prom if he didn't find another date.
so i guess that means no prom for me and i'm sad now.
all the good ones are taken or gay.
this sucks.
:(
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[03 Oct 2006|11:35pm] |
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the spill canvas - self conclusion |
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imaprettypiratex: well anyway, yeah i'm here.
brad: i'm glad you are...
imaprettypiratex: why? something you wanna talk about?
brad: no.. you just make me incredibly happy
WHY DID I MOVE?!!!!!!!!
look what i'm missing.
*sighs*
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[26 Mar 2006|03:51am] |
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montgomery gentry - she don't tell me to |
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the following entry may not want to be read by those of you who cannot accept other peoples' opinions and/or support george w. bush. all following information is based off of news articles that i have read and personal opinions of mine, as well...
i was reading on msn the talks of impeachment for president george w. bush and it has been brought to my attention that there have been arguments that bush and his officials conspired to manufacture evidence of weapons of mass destruction to persuade congress to approve the invasion. what kind of president would want his people hurt and/or killed? not a very good one, i'd say.
"Bush is saying 'I'm the president' and, on a range of issues -- from war to torture to illegal surveillance -- 'I can do as I like,' " said Michael Ratner of the Center for Constitutional Rights. "This administration needs to be slapped down and held accountable for actions that could change the shape of our democracy."
i couldn't agree more. what does he think he's doing? he's only digging himself an early grave. i personally, am shocked that he hasn't been murdered and not many attempts have been made to do so. i know many parents whose children cannot come home from war in a country we shouldn't be in doing something that isn't any of our business and out of this group of parents, i know some whose children did come home...dead and/or wounded. there is no point to any of this anymore. we should have gone in, gotten saddam and osama and gotten out. now our people are dying just because bush feels he needs to set up a government in a country whose people obviously do not want us there to begin with. sure, i know there are lots who do but what about the ones who keep killing our people because they don't? it's not any of our business what they do as long as they're aren't terrorizing us but of course, bush has to go putting us into places we don't belong. it's like putting a fish into sad and a cat into water. it just creates death. he's not doing anything to help our country.
and what about katrina? how much help have they gotten after what they had to go through? little to none. what should have taken a week or so to get provisions to them, took months instead. people were being raped, tortured and murdered down there and bush wasn't doing a thing to stop it. he's too worried about that precious oil over seas.
on another note, i agree with bush...sort of. yeah, read on..
i read that bush is pushing for a guest worker program that could provide temporary legal status for some of the estimated 12 million undocumented immigrants in the united states, but many of his fellow republicans are taking a more restrictive stance.
the demonstrators oppose legislation passed by the u.s. house that would make it a felony to be in the u.s. illegally. it also would impose new penalties on employers who hire illegal immigrants, require churches to check the legal status of parishioners before helping them and erect fences along one-third of the u.s.-mexican border.
i could not agree more. we're letting thousands of people in from other countries just to take our jobs, make money and leave. i was completely appalled when i saw this...
“We’re like the ancestors who started this country, they came from other countries without documents, too,” said Elsa Rodriguez, 30. “They call us lazy and dirty, but we just want to come to work. If you see, we have families, too.”
yes. you have families. huge ones. you over-populate and live in small homes that aren't fit for your children to live in. you live in these small homes so you don't have to pay much money for them. you take our jobs, save your money by only owning one car and a tiny house for your huge family and then you go back to your country just to live beautifully until the money runs out and then you're back for more just to leave again. and you are in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM like the ancestors who started this country. they came here without documents, yes...but because there wasn't a fucking person to show those documents to who were even going to understand!!!!!!!!! THEY CREATED this country and it would be one hell of a "THANKS, POPS" to their memories if you continue on with this rubbish. no i'm not saying you can't live here but if you want to, BE LEGAL!!!!!! don't just come to take our jobs and then leave. that's horse shit! oh, and learn english. you're in AMERICA now. when i worked at meijer, i was being made fun of by a group of mexicans. they didn't know i had 3 years of spanish, so they were shocked to get an argument out of me...but they ran off in the other direction. that's just fucking shit. don't come to our country and criticize our people. AND DO NOT FOR ONE FUCKING SECOND ACT LIKE YOU DON'T HAVE FAT PEOPLE IN YOUR ORIGINS, TOO, YOU FUCKS!!!!! grrrrr.
okay. i think i'm done now. if i find more, i might update this. i apologize if any of this offends people. they are STRICTLY my opinion. remember, we are in AMERICA, people...i have a freedom of speech. :)
love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[04 Mar 2006|09:45pm] |
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cold - a different kind of pain |
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i walk out of this darkness,
with no sense of regret;
and i go with a clear conscience.
we both know that you can't say that.
this to show, for all the time i loved you so.
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[16 Feb 2006|02:51am] |
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saving jane - come down to me |
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it's really blurry, but it was the only way i could capture the sparkle. i'll get better ones when i can!!! :D loves.
<3 * <3 * <3 * <3 * <3 * <3
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[15 Aug 2005|11:17pm] |
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the fast and the furious |
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i've come to the conclusion that if people don't like how you're feeling or what you think, they shouldn't argue your opinion. that's what it is, that's what it always has been and always will be, your opinion. so if you don't like the fact that i'm trying to help myself for once instead of the whole world, then you don't need to speak to me. just go away, leave me alone, and let me live my life freely and happily. thanks and have a great fucking day.
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[03 Nov 2004|04:00pm] |
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we're fucked.
i love famous amos cookies with peanut butter.
i'm really hungry.
there's a kerry sign in a bush.
anberlin makes me so happy. ^_^
tonight is going to be a strange night.
i hope my mom doesn't come this weekend.
i wish my birthday came sooner.
why is everything getting fucked up?
i need to clean the downstairs.
perhaps i should try to decorate my room soon.
the musical is in a few weeks, hope i can make it.
perhaps i should just move in with adrian.
i can't believe holli's pregnant.
i don't know why i care. we're fucked. end of story.
sarah looks funny as a goth, good thing she isn't anymore.
i love the new nfg. omgggg!!
<3
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[23 Oct 2004|01:20am] |
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hmm...met one of the coolest people today. he's really awesome. turns out we have a lot in common. hope we keep talking as much as we have tonight. ^_^
so things are looking up now, things are getting better and i think i might have a job. gosh i hope so. i need the money. i really wanted to record that demo. that could have been my breakthrough. who knows now though. i don't know.
one thing i know is, i can never give up though. and i don't ever plan on it either.
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[22 Oct 2004|01:22am] |
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You have everything to lose, you just don't know it because you deny it. It's a part of human nature. You can never know what you have to lose, until you do; and then sometimes, no matter how hard you try, you can never get it back. Cherish what you have, because in one hour, one minute or one second, it could be gone forever.
Lacie
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[21 Oct 2004|03:03pm] |
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faith hill - let me let go |
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AHHHHHHHHHH! so dang, i'm without the net for a few weeks and i come back and everything is different!!!!!!!!! okay, so much has changed since my computer went KABOOM! i've met so many people and lost so many, too. I NEED TO SEE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm lonely now. lol.
in others news, I GOT A DEMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but wouldn't you expect, i can't pay for it anymore. :'( someone, help? if you know me, you know that singing was my biggest dream and i was so close to it.....bahhh...
looking up though, i think next summer i'm moving to either england or the netherlands. i don't know yet but i hope it's england. ^_^ then i'll get to see and spend time with daveyyyy! weee. we'll see what happens though.
for all those that worried, the two of you i guess, i'm fine. things aren't the best but they'll get better. you'll see.
love you, the ones who cared and thought of me in my absence.
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[14 Sep 2004|07:03pm] |
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Julie Andrews - Break Down Here |
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so i recently moved to columbus. it was interesting. for about 3 weeks i was alone and everything was quiet and i was staying in every night and things were peaceful. then dylann moved in and things got crazy after about 5 days of him being here. we met his friend bryce and he changed a lot to fit in. it was really saddening to see. i don't have enough time to write about everything that's gone on with that but we've been going to clubs and looking for jobs and all that jazz and it's just great without the arguments.
before i moved here i found out that my sister has been using my college money to buy things and stuff because she doesn't know how to get up off of her fat lazy bitch ass and get a damn job. so i recently had to apply to a new college because i can't afford it. i finally get into the art school of my dreams, and i can't fucking go to it because my sister is a bitch. isn't that swell? yeah. so now instead of paying $8,000 per term at CCAD (Columbus College of Art and Design), i'll be paying less than $8,000 for 2 years at CSCC (Columbus State Community College). so i guess it's not that bad, but i actually got accepted into a really hard art school and DAMN IT i wanted to go. so she should fuck off because she's worthless. yeah.
:D
but i'm really glad that i finally have the net now. i got it working sometime yesterday and it's been on since then. it's great. i spent like almost a month without it and damn was that driving me crazy!!!!!! hahaha. yayyy for getting to talk to the people i missed! :D like davey, i love that boy and damn did i miss him. :(
well i'm off now because bryce is here and we have to help him unload his stuff. maybe i'll write again. love ya'll. (especially you davey!)
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[18 Aug 2004|01:10pm] |
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i hate guys who cheat on their girlfriends.
i hope kiersten finds someone. i hate her being lonely.
i think i'm gonna get lost a few times in columbus.
i still need a cd player for my car.
i love this candle, mmm apple.
i still have to clean out one dresser, then i'm done packing.
i hope everything fits into that dang uhaul.
i love my dork air freshener, teehee.
i still need to go buy those seat covers for my car.
it's gonna be so weird living somewhere so opposite of here.
i can't believe cassy cried when i gave her my new number.
i need to get a box for fahed's birthday stuff.
i love this new printer, i really needed it.
i might have to burn this cd for myself, too.
my room is such a mess now with all these boxes.
i can't wait to get this done and over with.
i'm bored and tired. gah.
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[08 Aug 2004|12:00am] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay.
not much else to say, but "BILLY! STOP WRITING SO MANY DAMN ENTRIES! THEY'RE ANNOYING AS HELL AND WAY TOO LONG!" and "maeg, i love 'whiskey girl' too :D YAY!!"
anyway, love ya'll.
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[30 Jul 2004|10:55pm] |
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how strange it is to fall in love with someone and watch them fall in love, too, with someone else. it hurts like a bitch, doesn't it? yeah. some of you are lucky enough to not know what that feels like and for your sake, i pray it stays that way.
recently i had been very bitter towards a person who held a very large part of my heart because of this. i felt betrayed, misled and shattered for the longest time. too long, in fact.
it ate away at me that at night when i said my prayers, he was normally the first person i prayed to god to make happy, but i never told him this. i never really told him that i wanted him to be truly happy, with or without me by his side.
so one night, i couldn't sleep..and he just happened to be online while i was, so i told him. i told him how happy i was for him and his girlfriend, and that i had hoped things would work out between them. he never knew the bitterness i had held in my heart to eat at my soul. perhaps he never should have, but i told him regardless.
just the other day, i was packing some stuff for my move out of my home and into my apartment so i can attend college at an art school in columbus and i stumbled upon a letter. one very ugly, plain white envelope with the cutest handwriting on it ever, reading "open this first."
reading back on all the letters, all the words placed upon a few simple sheets of paper, i began to cry. i was ashamed for the bitterness i had held because of him, and though i had apologized and he was more than understanding about it, i couldn't help but want to call him and just say to him "i'm sorry...i'm...so...sorry." but i didn't. no, i held it back and told myself that he understands, he knows that you're sorry, and he wants you to be happy.
driving home from value city tonight, i popped in a cd and i found it to be the song i had told him about back in august. the original version of "broken" by seether, not the one featuring amy lee. time seemed to fly right past me as i drove, my mind wandering back to the night when he first told me he had a girlfriend, the night my world seemed to stop, or at least it should have...and i smiled to myself.
now, sitting here, i cannot hope, pray or wish for anything more than his safety and happiness in life, as this is all i've really wanted all along. to that boy, though my pillow and your shirt don't quite smell like you anymore, i still dream of you with the biggest smile on your face in a time where nothing seems wrong at all in the world.
...and tonight, i will dream again. of what? i'm not sure yet. once again, to the boy whose smile floods my dreams, thank you, not only for being who you are but for making me who i am when i feel you near me.
<3
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[26 Jul 2004|11:55pm] |
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WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so i found out today that dylan, danny and i DEFINITELY have the apartment. only one problem. my mom doesn't want to let me move out of here and into the apartment until the weekend after my birthday (13-15). i start school on the 26 and i'll be 3 hours from home in a city i've been in TWICE in my life. that scares me. so i might just attend the spring semester instead because by then, i'll be used to the city. PLUS! there's a hanson concert on the 14 in columbus that i haaaaaaave to go to. i haaaave to. and i willlllllllll too. lol. ah ah ah i'm so glad i got the apartment. the only problem with the actual apartment is since i'm not gonna be 18 for another year (and mom forgot to tell the people that danny IS 18) the apartment has to go in her name, but i'm still gonna put the phone under danny's name and all cause i don't want my MOTHER'S name to show up when me, danny or dylan call someone. soo yeah. but i'm so relieved that we actually have it. yayyyy. :D
okay well i guess i don't have much else to say so i'ma go. love ya'll. LEAVE ME MESSAGES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[17 Jul 2004|02:01pm] |
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so i got my hair cut yesterday. i took about 6 or so inches off and i LOVE it! so does everyone else so far except my mother but oh well.
see for yourself.
dum de dum. on another note, danny is getting out of the army early and since he has nowhere to live dyl and i decided together that he could live with us. he's supposed to call this weekend so i can see when he can get out and work all the apartment stuff out with us though.
iiiin other news, i turn 17 in approximately 22 days. WOOOOO. 17 isn't really the best number it's just between sweet 16 and 18 sooo yeah but it's cool anyway. :D
BTW, HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MAEG! I LOVE YOU!!!!
um yeah i don't know what else to say. weee. love you all. LEAVE ME COMMENTS NOW DAMN IT. :(
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